I want to start off with this blog by stating this:
I am NOT writing this particular blog to gain sympathy. I am not trying to make myself be persecuted or anything like that. I face judgments just like everyone does. Everyone, no matter how open minded a person claims to be, they judge. Even I do. I know it's wrong, and I pray for forgiveness when I do it, but I still do it.
Obviously I face judgments by Christians. There are a lot of religious people out there that see a girl wearing a spiked Dog Collar (though, I refer to it as a "choker") who reads Harry Potter and watch zombie movies, and their first thought is "Devil Worshiper"!
But I also get judged at parties and conventions. I personally don't like the label "Religious". To me religion is man-made. Religion are the big do's and don'ts (Though, most of them are don'ts) and religion tells you must do a lot of things in order to please your God. I consider myself more spiritual. I don't use the label of "Spiritual" as a way to make myself holier than thou. Spirituality is when you have a personal relationship with God. That's what he wants. He doesn't want our works, he wants our hearts.
Of course, I have said relationship with God, and a lot of people have called me crazy.
Anyway, the main reason I don't like the term religious because of the fact that a lot of bells ring in people's heads. When I go to parties or conventions, somehow, in some way, religion comes up. So yes, I admit that I am a Christian. I am not ashamed of my faith, but I have never really brought my faith up out of the blue. Someone brings it up, (Call it a divine intervention I guess) and so yes, I tell them that I am a Christian. Most people, it's no big deal. But I have encountered some "bug eyes" at times. It's like something going on in their heads:
"Is going to preach at me?" "Is she going to Judge me?" "Is she going to tell me I'm going to go to hell?" "If I drink, is she going to tell me I shouldn’t?"
In fact, a lot of times I don't like to really drink in public because I get those eyes, as if they were saying "I thought you were a Christian."
So If I am a Goth, than to Christians I am either a Devil worshiper, but to some people who aren't Christians, I'm judgmental.
I am okay with this. I know who I am and someone else' opinions does not change that. All I can do is be myself, the person that God created.